Apparently I can get nothing accomplished today.
Really I have tried. No, not really........
See I have this speech tonight. Its an informational speech for my Speech class. It is on any topic we choose and it must be a minumum of5-6 minutes long.
Mine is 10.
This is all fine. As much as I stressed about it all week, I managed to get it all finished, organized, and even memorized. I am good at this type of stuff, I just put it off........er procrastinate.
Tonight I will be talking about the life of a Greyhound. Hey I figured it is a subject I know and passionate about so should be easy. The hard part is standing up and starting. All planning and practice go out the door. It is an almost paralyzing feeling. Slowly the words come to me and I pull it out, usually with out saying the word um.......too many times.
I have all day to myself. Biology this morning and the rest of the day to just practice and study. Well I have practiced and even recorded myself several times.
I have got nothing else done.
I changed out the laundry, ate, took a nap, cleaned out my google reader, posted, took shower, picked out my outfit, flat ironed my hair.........practiced again.
I have been home alone. We arranged for the kids to go with J's mom and he is picking them up after work. So I had no interupptions.
I have so much other stuff to be studying for. Huge biology test coming up......
My brain turned off, I can not physically take in anymore.
My stomach hurts.........more and more the time draws near. I know I will survive. As my teacher says....." No one will die from public speaking"........
okay, well it just feels that way. I feel sick
Lord help me to get in the car, drive safely to school, be the first to raise my hand and get the damn thing over with.
Then I can sit there and watch my fellow students sweat.
I have dreaded this class since I was 18. I am 31 and assure that it is not any easier. Yuck.....typing is making me sick......